Sunday, April 29, 2007

all about nothing ...

Just rambling today . Nothing much to do besides clean house and write .
Have you ever woken up one day to find out your family never really wanted
you ? To think that your childhood was just an illusion , well it's like having
the wind knocked out of you . And if people don't mean for you to think of it
that way then they should learn a different way of talking . Words mean a lot
of different things . How many of you thought you found your soul mate when you
were in your teenage years . That stuff affects females differently than males .
The boys can just go on like everything that happened meant nothing and there is
some girls that are just as heartless . What is a person to do if the one they
are in love with his/her friends don't like the love ? Life is such a balancing
act it gets tiring . What do you think ?

Wednesday, March 21, 2007


She is turning 3 at the end of may and it seems funny how time has passed by so fast.Her hair is long and curly , she has an adorable smile and the funniest laugh.Well at least I think so but I'm the mother so of course I would think so .She is so independent , sometimes it's funny to see how she want to do things.Kat had a rough start in life but she is doing so good now .

Sunday, February 25, 2007

past life in chatham

I was just thinking about my short time in chatham mass. 88-93.All the different memories flooding my thoughts ,some good - some bad.I miss the lighthouse at night
just standing there watching the light disappear into the black night and the sound of the water , like a lulaby.That lighthouse at night was one thing that always made things less painful.I get torn between missing the ocean and my love of the mountains of my west youngest girl (kat) reminds me of one thing of my life in chatham ,when i was 15 or 16 , something was said to me about my future children . she looks the spitting image of the description given me by a person no longer in my seems so weird to see such a thing come about.from 89 to 91 was the best summers i had in chatham.the people were good people and i eventually made some good friends but as always we didn't stay in touch.i wonder what chatham is like now.i would have liked to stay friends with some people but life don't always let you have what you want .that's what keeps us wondering why life turns out the way it does instead of the way we want or plan it.

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Valentines Baby

Happy Valentines Day world. Happy birthday to me and all the other valentines babies out there.We're getting a good helping of that Valentines Blizzard (as the news lady calls it),and the
kids school was closed so they were not happy today.It's funny how my kids actually like to go to school.I never liked going to school till I got up in the 8th grade , I was fascinated with Jr. & Sr. High school . Only it doesn't feel like a special day today, more like an ordinary day . I'm lucky though because I've got a good life , a hard one at that but that's what most anyone would say.
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and , well i'm just running on now so bye.

Tuesday, February 13, 2007


Have you ever walked through life wondering how your life turned out the way it has?Does our life really turn out the way we want it to , even if it's not what we pictured when we were children.I would like to know what people REALLY are like , because we know most everyone puts on a front once they step outside .Do we really want the world to know the real us or the character we become around them.Would society really accept REAL people or just the idea of ?

Monday, February 12, 2007

Grey outside and just as dismal inside.I've lost faith in my home state.There's truely no justice for the good people in this state. I'll be 30 on wednesday and I still don't believe it . Acording to some doctors , I shouldn't even be alive.I'm a Type 1 diabetic and it stays out of control.